Ok. I'm there now. The Stress Zone. Little things are built up in my head to be big things. Sleep is a distant memory. And here's a funny one: I usually under-eat when I'm stressed, but it seems that wedding stress is causing me to put anything I can find in my mouth (mind out of the gutter, you!). So when I got on the scale this morning and had GAINED weight, I lost it. I cried the whole way to the gym, and then proceeded to run for 25 minutes straight - a personal record. [Yes, I am completely aware at how pathetic 25 minutes is to many of you, but for me, that's freaking awesome. Remember? Exercise is against my religion.] That was kind of cathartic, though. I plan to do it again tomorrow, hopefully Thursday I'll be able to squeeze something in (not likely, but hopefully), and I plan to bring some workout clothes home in case I'm really not sleeping and think a run would help ease the tension.
My phone rings and my heart starts to beat furiously. What went wrong? Who's not coming? Which vendor isn't showing up? Why can't people leave me alone?!
I am off work starting Thursday. Here is what Thursday looks like for me: I have to get up early to drive Matt to work so that I'll have the car (I sold mine 2 years ago to save money). Then I have to drive back home (Matt works 45 minutes from home), pick up the pretzels and TastyCakes for the OOTs, finish packing, double-and-triple check the packing, set timers for the lights in the house, complete/print the day-of timelines, complete/print the contact lists, go pick Matt up at work, drive to Hershey, drop off stuff at my mom's, go for final fitting, pick up my boudoir album from Megan, go back home, enjoy dinner/socializing with various members of the family, put together the OOTs, wrap the bridesmaids gifts, and wrap Matt's gift.
Friday: Get up at 7:30, eat breakfast, drive out to Camp Hill (45 minutes) to drop my Grandma's ring off at JDK because like a dummy I forgot to give it to David at our last meeting, drive back to Hershey, drop off the OOTs at the hotel, go home, eat, go to the Spa, relax and get pampered for 3 hours (ahhhh....), go home, shower and get ready for rehearsal dinner, rehearse, eat, shmooze with our friends/family who join us for drinks, get to bed at a somewhat-normal hour and try to sleep!
Yup...busy couple of days. I am running a constant loop in my head of timelines, project deadlines, errands to run, people to see, food to eat (and not eat), and packing lists. You know how on DVR you can press the "skip" button and jump ahead a few minutes in whatever program you're watching? I want to do that. I want to just skip straight to Saturday at 4:30pm.
Not to mention that work is crazy right now, and I have a feeling that I am going to leave my floor looking like a total nightmare for whoever is going to have to cover for me the next 2 1/2 weeks. I don't like that feeling. I usually try to clean up all the loose ends before I go away on vacation, but things have been absolutely nightmarish with a bazillion placements and difficult cases and nasty families, and I hate the idea of dumping all of that on whatever poor soul will have to deal with it for me.