Thursday, March 10, 2011

30 Days of Truth - Day 10

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

I know who this person is in my heart, but I don't really want to go into great detail here.  She and I have been friends for 15 years, and off-and-on, it's been a fairly toxic friendship.  I've already let go of her once but let her back in when it seemed like her life was back on track and things would be better.  The past year or so, I've realized that things are not better.  She has not changed, and her attitude towards friendship hasn't changed.  I've actually kind of started fading her out a bit - not answering her 4-page long text messages (yes, I still have an ancient cell phone that breaks long text messages into pages), not returning her phone calls, etc. 

I hate doing this because I know it's hurting her.  But her friendship was doing me no good, and was only causing me stress.  Friendship shouldn't be like that.  Friendship should bring happiness to your heart, not weight it down.  It's time to let go and move on.  Again.


  1. Good luck with this, it's so hard to try and separate yourself but when a relationship is toxic it's so important to be able to move on to a happy place.

  2. There is definitely no good reason to keep yourself in a friendship that isn't supporting you as much as you're supporting it.

    I hope that this post brings some much needed closure for you :)