Tuesday, March 22, 2011

30 Days of Truth - Day 22

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.


I wish I hadn't wasted all my money in Pittsburgh.  When it came time to getting my student loans for grad school, I took the full amount they offered.  Way over what was necessary to pay my tuition.  I used the remainder of the money to pay my rent, and then any extra money I made at my part-time job, I spent frivolously.  So when my classes were done and it was time to decide what to do after graduation, I was forced to face reality - I was broke.  I had spent and charged myself into a big hole.  A hole that was only going to get bigger once the grace period for paying back my loans was over - $31,000 bigger.  YIKES.  I had to go back home and live with my parents.  I really didn't want to do it.  I was in love with Pittsburgh and my life there.  I had made 2 amazing friends and I really wasn't ready to leave them.  But I had to do it.  Without the "income" from the loans and now having to pay back the loans, there was no way I could afford to stay.  So I moved back to Hershey and left the life I had created in Pittsburgh. 

Pittsburgh was the first time I really made a life of my own.  I went there by myself, knowing no one.  I had no friends, no family - no safety net whatsoever.  Not only did I overcome that fear of being totally on my own, but I also faced and dealt with my PTSD.  I was so proud of my life in Pittsburgh.  And I hated having to leave it.  So that's what I wish I hadn't done - wasted my money and forced myself to give up that life.

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