Sunday, March 13, 2011

30 Days of Truth - Day 13

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Lifehouse,

Thank you for putting "Somewhere in Between" out into the world.  That song was on repeat for me for weeks, for hours at a time, during a really hard part of my life.  Even now, every time I hear the song, it takes me right back to those days, and I am, once agian, curled up in a ball in my bedroom with the lights off, trying to make sense of everything.

May 2002, I was raped.  By a friend of a friend at a party.  For days and weeks afterwards, I just could not wrap my head around the reality of the situation.  I kept second-guessing myself.  I kept telling myself it didn't happen.  "This is over my head but underneath my feet..."  That was me - I couldn't quite grasp it, but at the same time I was right on top of it, and if I wasn't careful, it would come out from under me, and I'd drop like a stone.  I was "...somewhere in between what is real...just a dream."  Everything was fuzzy.

The lyrics aren't exactly the most uplifting, but somehow they made sense to me.  They made me feel stronger.  They made me feel like there was someone out there who got me.  Someone out there who knew how I felt.  Someone out there who understood that everything was happening too quickly, and there was so much in my head, and none of it made any sense.

But this song pulled me through.  Thank you.


1 comment:

  1. oh my gosh. i just came to this post from your post today and I am so sorry this happened to you. What a terrible thing to go through. I am sorry.