30 Days of Truth - Day 29

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Do the size of my butt and gut count?  No?  Oh, alright, fine.  *stomps feet*

I need a better poker face.

(source)

No, not that kind of poker face.  I need to stop showing my emotions so easily.  Especially my disgust/annoyance/frustration.  Especially at work.  I roll my eyes.  I huff.  It's bad. 

Ok.  So every day, at 10am, I am forced to sit in discharge rounds with the nurses, nurse case managers, and residents to discuss every single patient on the floor.  The theory of these rounds is fantastic - to discuss every patient's current needs and to start their discharge planning.  On paper, it's a great idea.  In practice, however, they're a big freaking mess.  I won't go into specifics, but it gets really old.  Really quickly.  And that shows on my face.  And I know that people notice it.  And I don't like it.  I need to hide that better. 

But I do it in my personal life, too.  If something upsets me I noticeably react.  I used to be really good at just letting things roll off my back.  I don't know what changed or when it changed, but I am becoming very reactionary in my old age.  And I don't like it.  I need to hide that better, too. 

So that's what I hope to work on.  I need to harness my chi.